I Don’t Trust Society Anymore
I don’t trust society anymore. I can’t delude myself into thinking the people around me know what’s best for me, themselves, or anything at all for that matter. The men I’ve met are seriously lacking in emotional awareness and empathy. I’m realizing that for many people their baseline is just reacting to one stimulus […]
Stop Explaining Yourself
Stop explaining yourself. For a few days, weeks, even months basking in the absence of it, if you can. See the difference in your personal peace and how you carry yourself. Observe how your internal soundtrack changes– From shame, self-criticism, productivity, conflict, and frustration to the sound of your own voice– Creative, expressive, comedic, playful, […]
Let’s Talk About Autism
I haven’t typed a journal entry in awhile. But my hope in doing it this way is to capture some of the helpful things I’ve integrated into my life to support autism and Ehlers-Danlos syndrome. The reality for me is that I developed all of my support systems and ways of caring for myself through […]
Dramatic and Unseen
Is she dramatic or is she unseen? Is she descriptive or is she well-practiced in explaining herself where she doesn’t need to? I’d rather love people and understand the things behind them that makes them act the way they do- then to attempt to punish anyone or thing. Who am I but someone who has […]
How To Forgive Yourself
An intuitive list interwoven with Buddhist wisdom- 1) Know it is the highest act of love and consciousness you do for yourself and others. “being able to forgive ourselves is necessary for self-acceptance, which is important for developing loving-kindness. It doesn’t matter which comes first, forgiveness, self-acceptance, or loving-kindness, because they are all interrelated and […]
The Abandonment Wound
The ultimate human crisis. Do we know the moon never leaves? Even if it does not show. Do we know the sun never leaves? Even behind clouds. We’re at each others necks all the time- fighting for things and the absence of feelings we don’t want to feel The adversity of our relationships could be […]
Don’t Listen
Go Within The world will tell a breath guide how to breathe, the life coach how to live, the poet that it has to be hard and unartistic, the traumatized that they just need to work harder. We don’t even realize how indoctrinated we are as we sing songs that were not composed from our […]
Along The Way
Challenging & Surrendering Identity To Cultivate Authenticity I see how myself and a few others have been queued at an energetic standstill- called to leave behind everything that doesn’t work in exchange for what does. The way we did things up until now got us here, but cannot come with us longer. I see now- […]
The Forest Where The Sun Doesn’t Reach
It’s funny because this is something I just realized… I may always carry the ability to experience trauma response. It may never go away. What fooled me was coming back into my body after years being away. I guess I thought, finally, I’ve been out of the deep and dark woods. I’m in the open […]
Anyone Can Heal (The Story of Tina)
The brain is likes a series of rivers (neuropathways). The more we go to a river- the harder it is to go to another one. It’s not impossible. But it is by no means an immediate switch to “be a better person” or “get it together”. It is a long and incredibly beautiful journey into […]